Alternate Sound of Life -- She Whispers Loud

Safe Words

We go down / amidst the cries of this epicurean / latex bound / soldiering on into oblivion / we gain so much crossing the line / but we will burn like Icarus / I know

Safe words are lost / you swore we'd never

(Too much / too fast / too late / I gave up so much to pain)

Hurt like this / I'm so bruised and battered

(Too much / too fast / too late / I gave up so much to pain)

Abnegated dignity / oh, so hedonistically

We go down / amidst the sex starved, wanton deviants / no profound / realizations of my own lament / we lost so much preying on life / but we've had such fun preying

Safe words are lost / you swore we'd never

(Too much / too fast / too late / I gave up so much to pain)

Hurt like this / I'm so bruised and battered

(Too much / too fast / too late / I gave up so much to pain)

Abnegated dignity / oh, so hedonistically

May we prey on you next?

She Whispers Loud

She shed the pain / of her life / at the edge of a lover's knife / the shock of death / she welcomed it / yes she was always the consummate / misconstrued young ingénue / with a chip on her shoulder / and nowhere to turn / her flesh the fuel of their errant burn

And this fire lights up the skies above

Blinding us

All these lies have killed off the only one

I could have loved

I can't believe she's gone

Memories of her laugh play on

Oh, how we’ve lain to rest our love

They drive her down / alone and bound / this dirt road that would lead her home / they scream and cry / in hopes they might / uncover some little piece of mind / egregious deed of which they'll never speak / as they turn and they leave what's left of her body for carrion crow / it never happened if nobody knows

And this fire lights up the skies above

Blinding us

All these lies have killed off the only one

I could have loved

I can't believe she's gone

Memories of her laugh play on

Oh, how we’ve lain to rest our love

As we lay her down / there's no one around / shall we hedge the bleed

or for her will we bereave?

And this fire lights up the skies above

Blinding us

All these lies have killed off the only one

I could have loved

I can't believe she's gone

Memories of her laugh play on

Oh, how we’ve lain to rest our love

I Gained an Audience

I gained an audience while you lost a family

Lights out / last call / but we can stay if we want to

I don’t think you’ll make the door

lights out / last call / and we can drink until we stutter

until I won’t recognize you anymore

I gained an audience while you lost a family

I gained notoriety for ending a life

I saw my youth a fettered existence of –jump and how high-

if we had never met I would have been better off.

I have defined the course of my life in less than the blink of an eye

This is the hardest of life lessons

I have defined the course of my life in less than the blink of an eye

The hardest of life lessons learned

Too late / too late / I was waiting / but I don’t feel her anymore

locked away in here / forever more

I saw my youth a fettered existence of –jump and how high-

if we had never met I would have been better off.

I have defined the course of my life in less than the blink of an eye

This is the hardest of life lessons

I have defined the course of my life in less than the blink of an eye

The hardest of life lessons learned

Promise me that I can count on you

Stand by me until I have paid my dues

Or will you decide to start anew

Like we were better off

Well I’m not better off

I have defined the course of my life in less than the blink of an eye

This is the hardest of life lessons

I have defined the course of my life in less than the blink of an eye

The hardest of life lessons learned

The Safety

In fear of this hasty decision / leaving me a spiritual void / I find myself wishing to hear your voice

What happened to find that you would leave the safety of - a good home

it’s all we have

Don't you fear the consequence?

What happened to find that you would leave the safety of - a good home

it’s all we have

Don't you fear the consequence?

I pray that while out in the ether / we hold to our simplest of creeds / we strive for the good life of dignity / oh how unconvinced we are

What happened to find that you would leave the safety of - a good home - it’s all we have

Don't you fear the consequence?

What happened to find that you would leave the safety of - a good home - it’s all we have

I concede the notion

We have good intentions

I concede the notion

We have good intentions

What happened to find that you would leave the safety of - a good home - it’s all we have

Don't you fear the consequence?

What happened to find that you would leave the safety of - a good home - it’s all we have

I confuse the notion of innocence and I

Rumspringa

I left a sullen state of sorrow for a new life exalting you

Less we offend the past as we strive for something true.

If we can justify this

Wherever faith will guide me / I’ll try and follow blindly /One day we’ll both decide we / have had far too much of this anomalous abyss

Intemperate in all that we’ve access / I hope it paints idyllic views

Of a whole life based on a moral dissolute

If we can justify this

Wherever faith will guide me / I’ll try and follow blindly /One day we’ll both decide we / have had far too much of this anomalous abyss

Maybe in afterlife

We can find our / our little piece of mind

Was always out of sight

Wherever faith will guide me

I’ll try and follow blindly

One day we’ll both decide we’ve had far too much of this anomalous abyss

I can’t leave everything

And still feel I love from anything

Myriad

All the precious ambience of laughter / always shares collective solitude / as life aloft a burial / alive this adversarial / choice of whether we should bid this life adieux

How do we live this listless opera?

With such a dry eye

How do we seem to leave the ones we love?

Without the pain of feeling lost again

Wisdom isn't worth it if all we feel is loss of innocence

Stare into a myriad of answers / a bout of paranoid delirium / choose a life laborious / choose a life of sordid lust / or choose to linger on the edge of this indecision

How we do live this listless opera?

With such a dry eye

How do we seem to leave the ones we love?

Without the pain of feeling lost again

Wisdom isn't worth it if all we feel is loss of innocence

We should have kept ourselves away / from everyone we loved / the deafening sound / of their lives shattering loud / we just can't leave the scene / we just can't walk away from these / lives we shattered loudly

How we do live this listless opera?

How do we seem to leave the ones we love?

We are listless as aberrations are

We are lost

The Deep End

Play as little children play / she was spirited away / not long for this world / gone was this girl far before her time / I take a look around and see that my child has fallen by the wayside

Just breath now

Stretched out / tilted head / count the hammer-fists; they fall on me

Just breath now

Pressed hard to my chest and pleading -open your eyes-

Your song's not yet sung

So fight to keep the air in your lungs

Fight because there's no way

I'm living all my life with this shame

As you sleep, dream of me

Play as little children play / she was washed up in the wake / I fate the daughter / blame the father and lower her into the ground / I take a look around and see that my child / has fallen by the wayside.

Just breath now

Stretched out / tilted head / count the hammer-fists; they fall on me

Just breath now

Pressed hard to my chest and pleading -open your eyes-

Your song's not yet sung

So fight to keep the air in your lungs

Fight because there's no way

I'm living all my life with this shame

You’re weeping / because I swam in the deep end / while you were sleeping / you lost me to the water, Father

There's no way / I will walk through that doorway / so stop waiting for me / it's been so very long / forget me and move on because,......

My song has been sung

I fought to keep the air in my lungs

But it was such a long way

To the bottom so this is where I'll stay

Now as you sleep / dream of me / dream of me and I'll wake someplace safe

Stop your weeping / because I swam in the deep end / while you were sleeping / you lost me to the water, Father

In The Failing Light

They shell on the earthworks / and rain fire down from up above / we are sent in as skirmishers / a chance to prove we belong / the water is cold it trickles along my thigh / faced with an old dilemma irrationalized / I bet together we could dam this whole river my friend

Pray that I’ve not come too late

Tell me their life’s not a waste

For the rest of all my days

I will remember you

Struck down along rifle pits / I roll back into an angel span / last call of the clarion / sounding my swan song’s end / the water is cold it trickles along my thigh / faced with an old dilemma irrationalized / I watch the bodies as they dam this whole river my friend

Pray that I’ve not come too late

Tell me their life’s not a waste

For the rest of all my days

I will remember you

I was always pushing / to the edge hoping / I timed out the fall completely / in the failing light / I prayed to god I might / sleep oh so sound.

Pray that I’ve not come too late

Tell me their life’s not a waste

For the rest of all my days

I will remember you

Beautiful Lines

Stay / because your overwhelming shine / strikes a stabbing up my spine comfortable and divine / though / you're quite stunning in low light / the dereliction of your life has left your complexion white / bathed in the red, red light / of our downtown motel room / seems the only way that I might / find the innocence / that I left behind so long ago

I have seen it all

Since I left home so long ago

Blessed without a soul

I was

Stay / so that our lives may intertwine / as I’m tracing out the shape of your beautiful lines / though I know nothing of your life / a predilection for all those bestowed of your guise / of the carnal erudite / It’s what lies beneath exteriors I have all the will to enlight / and find the innocence / that you left behind so long ago.

I have seen it all

Since I left home so long ago

Blessed without a soul

I was

I got down on my knees

And begged for all she had to teach

Hungry and in need

I was

The oldest professionals

Teach me everything I need to know

They show me the tangible / I show them the void they fill inside me

I have seen it all

Since I left home so long ago

Blessed without a soul

I got down on my knees

And begged for all she had to teach

Hungry and in need

I was

Dressed in Feathers

Vision in a pair of hazel doll eyes / sat upon my lap and told me / this world is crumbling / down around you and I / I gave you so much / know your touch is binding / there is life inside me / and this life will be,...

He was so desperate

Begging forgiveness again

He was absolved of it

Because she was so fearless

He saw the family he started crumbled to the ground

Destitute and broken because he wasn’t around

Now that he has tracked them down

It’s time to put up or shut out

Vision in a mess of hair and tears / I clutched her throat and drew her near as / I wished to debate / on love, lust and hate / I gave you so much / but what you ask is daunting / I’ve so much to see / and so much to be

He was so desperate

Begging forgiveness again

He was absolved of it

Because she was so fearless

He saw the family he started crumbled to the ground

Destitute and broken because he wasn’t around

Now that he has tracked them down

It’s time to put up or shut out

Chariot / I rode the chariot / that take me away from this / I missed the call

But I returned / cut from a different fur / ready to father her / would you let me back in her life

He was absolved / bless her resolve

He wanted in / to begin again

He was a ready father

I will stay for it all.

Living On

The things she said - when we were all alone / the things she did

I could hardly believe / the things she said - when we were all alone

fast to her tether / she misses home

Help me understand

All that living on demands

Would you have helped me stay my hand?

I desecrated

All the beauty that she had

Would you have helped me stay my hand?

The things she said when we were all alone, alone

the things she did, I could hardly believe

I lack the strength to see this through / I lack the sense to cut her loose

I lack the strength to see her hanging from this noose

Help me understand

All that living on demands

Would you have helped me stay my hand?

I desecrated

All the beauty that she had

Would you have helped me stay my hand?

Oh / living on

Mahk jchi tahm buooi yahmpi gidi

As we were lost and tumbling

Mahk jchi tahm buooi kan spewa eh

As we chose to embrace the fall

Help me understand

All that living on demands

Would you have helped me stay my hand?

I desecrated

All the beauty that she had

Would you have helped me stay my hand?

Oh / living on / it’s not so hard

when we forget what we’ve done / and carry on.

You Say

He was in doubt / yet fought to figure out

all the ways he'd hold onto what he couldn't live without

She said it's not / you or who we are / we've come so far yet

we've struggled all throughout

oh well

You'd always say we're out of touch

With all the millions of people in love

You'd always say hold onto better times

These things, these things that haunt me

You'd always say

He spent a while / with a shotgun to his smile

and an old Smiths album preaching to the choir

She begged him not / to wallow in despair

we both have bright futures without each other there

oh Well

You'd always say we're out of touch

with all the millions of people in love

You'd always say hold onto better times

These things, these things that haunt me

You'd always say

Let loose the reigns

You'd always say

We have to change / to change / if you want me to stay